Friday, November 27, 2009

St. Francis Xavier, Pray for us!*

I am writing this a few days before the feast of St. Francis Xavier, the patron saint of missions and missionaries.

Xavier, like Ignatius, fell madly in love with God that he turned his back to a privileged life as a noble man. What in God’s wonder and grace did Xavier discover that made him decide to pursue his apostolate and evangelize Asia? Perhaps I will never know since one’s relationship with God is often unique and very personal. Maybe it can be gleaned in the literature that abound or in the many faith stories that litter the Internet. On the one hand, what I can take from Xavier’s life is the perfect example of discernment. In the Ignatian formation, discernment involves a process of repetitive patterns of awareness and a constant deepening of prayer life.

Xavier had a healthy spiritual life that he knew what was God’s plan for him. On top of that, he knew who God is and clearly saw His presence moving in and out of his life. Now that’s what he got being Ignatius’ BFF (Best Friend Forever).

Cognizant of this spiritual tenacity of St. Francis Xavier, I am moved to re-examine my own relationship with the God I know. What a perfect way to do just that this Advent season. More than basking in the glimmer and glitter of Christmas, I feel it necessary to attend an Advent recollection – to slow down after a year filled with stress, tears and weariness. This world and its many attachments have the power to wean me away from the God who loves me. The effect is pretty confusing. I still ask, most of the time really, what my life’s mission is. It is easy to know what one needs and wants from this life. But what is God’s?

I wonder what is God trying to tell me? What does God want me to do? Often, the answers to my questions lead me back to the strengthening of my prayer life for it is in prayerful silence where God reveals Himself. Sadly, I have consistently failed in this department. But I take heart because, as much as there are plenty of distractions in the outside world, God manifests His promise of eternal love in numerous ways; in prayer, in the scripture, in the preaching of the church, in the community I break bread with, in the lives of the saints.

Indeed, St. Francis Xavier’s life story is a powerful testimony to the existence of a living and loving God. His spiritual journey gives me hope, faith and the courage to love despite my own flaws. I do not aspire to be a saint, goodness! Yet, his spirituality, his way of loving, his discovered mysticism is enough to guide me in my own spiritual quest.

*For the December Issue of the Magis Deo Newsletter

Monday, November 23, 2009

Rob Pattinson In Remember Me

Glad that RPatz is in this movie. The change is good.

I'm now Twilight weary (must be the Twilight Fanfic that clutter the Internet!) , but not with Rob!

Saturday, November 07, 2009

What's with Mt. Olivet?


Since 2006, our BCGG, Mt. Olivet, has been very active in the marriage encounter ministry of the MAGIS DEO Community that it baffles council elders. How do members of Mt. Olivet, who are geographically far apart, could actually meet twice a week for prayer meetings, attend community celebrations every first Friday and participate in outreach activities when called for?

There is nothing special in us, BCGG Mt. Olivet.

Yet, I would like to think that in our imperfections and limitations God is at work in each of us that we all are available at the given time. If this is a way of loving, then I pray that we all continue to grow in spirituality.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

To Noynoy from Ninoy

Got this from my email's inbox --

This is a letter of Ninoy Aquino to his son, Noynoy, 36 years ago. This letter was released by the Aquino family on 09-09-09 when Noynoy proclaimed his candidacy to run as President of the Philippines. Noynoy's decision to accept the call for him to run for President is his reply to his father, 36 years after Ninoy wrote to him from his prison cell. A true hero!

August 25, 1973
Fort
11:30pm

Mr. Benigno S.. Aquino III
P E R S O N A L

My dearest Son:

One of these days , when you have completed your studies I am sure you will have the opportunity to visit many countries. And in your travels you will witness a bullfight.

In Spanish bullfighting as you know, a man, the matador, is pitted against an angry bull. The man goads the bull to extreme anger and madness. Then a moment comes when the bull, maddened, bleeding and covered
with darts, feeling his last moment has come, stops rushing about and grimly turns his face on the man with the scarlet "muleta" and sword. The Spaniards call this "the moment of truth." This is the climax of the bullfight.

This afternoon, I have arrived at my own moment of truth. After a lengthy conference with my lawyers, Senators Jovito R. Salonga and Lorenzo M. Tanada I made a very crucial and vital decision that will surely affect all our lives: mommie's, your sisters' , yours and all our loved ones as well as mine.

I have decided not to participate in the proceedings of the Military Commission assigned to try the charges filed
against me by the army prosecution staff. As you know, I've been charged with illegal possession of firearms,
violation of RA 1700 otherwise known as the "Anti-Subversion Act" and murder.

You are still too young to grasp the full impact of my decision. Briefly: by not participating in the proceedings, I will not be represented by counsel, the prosecution will present its witnesses without any cross examinations, I will not put up any defense, I will remain passive and quiet through the entire trial and I will merely await the verdict. Inasmuch as it will be a completely one-sided affair, I suppose it is reasonable to expect the maximum penalty will be given to me. I expect to be sentenced to imprisonment the rest of my natural life, or possibly be sent to stand before a firing squad. By adopting the course of action I decided upon this afternoon, I have literally decided to walk into the very jaws of death.

You may ask: why did you do it? Son, my decision is an act of conscience. It is an act of protest against the structures of injustice that have been imposed upon our hapless countrymen. Futile and puny, as it will surely appear to many, it is my last act of defiance against tyranny and dictatorship.

You are my only son. You carry my name and the name of my father. I have no material wealth to leave you. I never had time to make money while I was in the hire of our people. For this I am very sorry. I had hopes of building a little nest egg for you. I bought a ranch in Masbatein the hope that after ten or fifteen years, the coconut trees I planted there would be yielding enough to assure you a modest but comfortable existence.

Unfortunately, I had to sell all our properties as I fought battle after political battle as a beleaguered member of the opposition. And after the last battle, I had more obligations than assets. The only valuable asset I can bequeath to you now is the name you carry. I have tried my best during my years of public service to keep that name untarnished and respected, unmarked by sorry compromises for expediency. I now pass it on to you, as good, I pray, as when my father, your grandfather passed it on to me.

I prepared a statement which I intend to read before the military commission on Monday at the opening of my trial. I hope the commission members will be understanding and kind enough to allow me to read my statement into the record. This may well be my first and only participation in the entire proceedings. In this statement, I said: Some people suggested that I beg for mercy from the present powers that be. Son, this I cannot do in conscience. I would rather die on my feet with honor, than live on bended knees in shame.

Your great grandfather, Gen. Servilliano Aquino was twice condemned to death by both the Spaniards and the American colonizers. Fortunately, he survived both by a twist of fate. Your grandfather, my father was also imprisoned by the Americans because he loved his people more than the Americans who colonized us. He was finally vindicated. Our ancestors have shared the pains, the sorrows and the anguish of Mother Filipinas when she was in bondage. It is a rare privilege for me to join the Motherland in the dark dungeon where she was led back by one of her own sons whom she lavished with love and glory.

I ended my statement thus: I have chosen to follow my conscience and accept the tyrant's revenge.

It takes little effort to stop a tyrant. I have no doubt in the ultimate victory of right over wrong, of evil over good, in the awakening of the Filipino.

Forgive me for passing unto your young shoulders the great responsibility for our family. I trust you will love your mother and your sisters and lavish them with the care and protection I would have given them.

I was barely fifteen years old when my father died. His death was my most traumatic experience. I loved and
hero-worshipped him so much, I wanted to join him in his grave when he passed away. But as in all sorrows, eventually they are washed away by the rains of time.

In the coming years, I hope you will study very hard so that you will have a solid foundation on which to build your future. I may no longer be around to give you my fatherly advice. I have asked many of your uncles to help you along should the need arise and I pray you will have the humility to drink from their fountain of experiences.

Look after your two younger sisters with understanding and affection. Viel and Krissy will need your umbrella of protection for a long time. Krissy is still very young and fate has been most unkind to both of us. Our parting came too soon. Please make up for me. Take care of her as I would have taken care of her with patience and warm affection.

Finally, stand by your mother as she stood beside me through the buffeting winds of crisis and uncertainties firm and resolute and uncowed. I pray to God, you inherit her indomitable spirit and her rare brand of silent courage.

I had hopes of introducing you to my friends, showing you the world and guide you through the maze of survival. I am afraid, you will now have to go it alone without your guide. The only advice I can give you: Live with honor and follow your conscience.

There is no greater nation on earth than our Motherland. No greater people than our own. Serve them with all your heart, with all your might and with all your strength. Son, the ball is now in your hands.

Lovingly,
Dad
Bonifacio

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Life After Ondoy

All I need to know about life, love and loss I learned after Ondoy.

Life. That Saturday, September 26, 2009, Domeng and I planned to have breakfast in McDonalds. It is something of a routine we do when payday comes. It turned out that the weather was too good for sleeping in. We woke up late and I had to rush for work. By 10:30 AM, Domeng called me up at work to inform me of the rising floodwaters in Pinagbuhatan, Pasig City. Two hours after his frantic call, phone lines and electricity were down in the area. I was stranded in a cozy place with all the amenities this frivolous world could offer while my family endured Ondoy’s might and wrath.

I was dry and safe. But guilt, regret and worry flooded me in. I was diminished. My only salvation was prayer. When I reached our flooded home the morning after, all that mattered was seeing my family, my very reason for being, all in one piece.

Love. While waiting for the storm to pass, I held on to prayer. It did wonders. An inner voice assured me that Domeng could weather Ondoy without me; that Nico and Zoe would be safe; that yaya Joy would offer whatever help is necessary to ease the kids’ anxiety. True enough, they all managed to conquer the moment. They were able to salvage the basics at the second floor. Their bags were packed. They were ready to relocate.

The control freak that I am, acts of surrender are Herculean tasks. But on that fateful night, feeling helpless, I could do nothing but submit everything to God. Domeng had the same resolve. He was willing to give up his life for the kids. He was prepared to stare death in the face. Was it an act of weakness on his part? To me, it was an act of love.

The remarkable thing about our Ondoy ordeal is that, we were made aware of God’ s loving presence. Nico monitored the radio and Domeng asked him for updates. Before electricity was cut off, Nico was tuned in a local station that had this message to listeners: God will never abandon us.

Loss. And God is indeed with us even after Ondoy. The assistance, help and support from relatives and friends have been tremendous. I have no right to complain.

A month after fleeing Pasig, Domeng went back to survey the extent of damage and necessary clean up. From the look of things versus our financial status, we will struggle to recover and rebuild losses incurred by Ondoy. It will not be easy. In fact, I am overwhelmed with the task at hand. There is so much to clean, so many things to let go. But this is what I learned, God never willed His people to suffer. The destruction brought by Ondoy was not an act of God, but man’s failure to be responsible stewards of this earth.

Sometimes I think I do not deserve such gifts of life and love. The sinner that I am. Then again, each of us is called to goodness and universal holiness. So I trudge on bearing the loss, the pain and discovering the graces that come with sacrifice.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Kuya F! Filipino Modern Day Hero

Campaigns are up for the CNN Hero of the Year Award. The Philippines' very own, Efren Penafolrida Jr. is in the running. Known as Kuya F! in the Cavite community where he set up Dynamic Teen Company, his pushcart classrooms continue to help kids in the slums overcome adversaries brought by poverty.

I'm casting my vote. He's a teacher. He's a Filipino. He's a modern day hero!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Bangon By Rico Blanco

Papadoms and I are great fans of Rico Blanco. His music is genuine. His lyrics poetic. He could bring these two together in a seamless composition that is simply known as a song. But, dear me, he does it so well his contemporaries are getting nosebleeds! The man is a genius!

A few weeks after Ondoy came to pass, he lent his exceptional talent by composing a new song - BANGON. Call it a theme song to inspire and encourage Ondoy victims (like hubby and I) to rise from the muck and mud, but it also speaks of the many Filipinos who extended life and limb in the relief, rescue, recovery and rebuilding operations.

View the video from this blog. Read and ponder on the lyrics below:

Bangon

pinaluhod tayo,
sa isang hagupit
niragasa, sinalanta,
pinaluha

humupa ang unos, isang bahaghari!
dala ng bukang liwayway-
pag-ibig
pagkakaisa


BANGON
pilipinas kong mahal
akay ang pananampalataya sa may kapal
AHON
buhay sa yong dugo
ang tibay na tatak ng tunay na Pilipino


at nagising ang bayanihan
milyon milyon naging isa
walang kami
walang kayo
walang sila
tanging ligaya
ay pag alay ng sarili sa iba


BANGON
pilipinas kong mahal
akay ng pananampalataya sa may kapal
AHON
taglay ng yong dugo
ang tibay na tatak ng tunay na Pilipino

bridge:
hindi ka namin iiwan
hindi tayo susuko!
lulusong tayo't magtatagumpay
magtatagumpay!

BANGON
pilipinas kong mahal
akay ang pananampalataya sa may kapal
AHON
buhay sa yong dugo
ang tibay na tatak ng tunay na Pilipino

coda:
lahat nitong mga pagsubok
ay ating kayang lagpasan
lahat nitong mga pagsubok
ay ating kayang lagpasan

Source: http://amillionflames.multiply.com/music/item/9/BANGON